What's Next Life? Bring It On? .....or don't. preferably don't. Ok in fact if you would stop, I would greatly appreicate it.

These last few posts were filled with so much anger. I apologize to everyone who reads my blogs and are tired of hearing me whine. I got a call from my Mom while I was at work yesterday. When my Mom calls me that means theres bad news. I returned her call yesterday and she told me that my grandmother, who hasn't been very well recently, was taken to a local hospital. Local being in Lowell Massachusetts. They transferred her to a hospital in Boston. My mom, who wasn't making much sense, told me she needed her heart shocked to keep her alive. I guess she can still talk and do things she's just very weak. So my mom gave me her number to call her. I called her yesterday but I didn't get an answer.

Today I went to work and the day for no reason was slower than most days. The customers weren't that bad, my fellow employees were in good moods, my bosses weren't nagging. There was nothing wrong about today. The day just kept feeling longer and longer. It was hard to get through.

I needed to call my gradnmother before 9:00 her time which is 6:00 my time. So I called her while I was at work at 5:00 my time. I'm glad I did because she loved hearing from me but it was one of the saddest experiences I'd ever had. I felt sick. I'm so far away and so poor that I feel there's nothing I can do. I'm pretty scared. If anything I should see her while she's still alive. I'm rambling I'm sorry. Point is I hated my last 2 hours of work. I just wanted to leave but because I also want a promotion I need to do everything I can to show them I can leave home problems at the door when I arrive.

When I came home Mollye was pretty upset. Not mad upset but sad upset. We've been in debt for a while just from school bills and credit cards we used to live off of when life got really hard for us and 2 car bills. I won't go into it but it's just tough times right now for us.

I have a headache and right now the computer is looking pretty blurry so Im going to go. I don't have a big finale so just use your imgination and imagine me winning the lottery and because I'm a good friend, I help all of you out of debt. I say "all of you" because only 10 people visit my blog, how much could it cost?