The Question as to Whether or not God Exists is Still Just A Question

If there is a God, than I love him. God is great. But if "it" doesn't exist, than everything in life makes a hell of alot more sense. For me murder, Rape, Cancer all seem to be more acceptable when there's no one pulling the strings above . Think about it. Your father dies from cancer, there's no one to blame. People get murdered or raped , well you do blame the murderer and rapist but that's it. There's no need to ask God why these events happened because God's not there.

I don't think what I'm writing is workiing, let me put it this way. My grandfather was pulled out of school at an early age because his father died and he needed to get a job. I'm not sure what he did for work but as soon as he was old enough he signed up for the army and was shipped out to Korea. Long story short he got out, went to work for raytheon and than retired at 65. He died of cancer at 67. Some people would say his life was all apart of God's plan and others would say God must have needed him for something, that's why he took him. My question is, for what? It seems kind of a shitty plan to work someone his whole life, give him 1 year of retirement,than take him so he can work for you now in heaven or whatever.

Another sad thing I hate to think about and say are people who are raped will sometimes say it must have happend for a reason or, again, its a part of Gods plan. It just makes me think was it God's plan to have made you suffer and live with an emotional scar for the rest of your life. Now I know that people will say anything they can and to help them get through life with a scar. I'm not attacking them at all. I'm just talking out loud in general about how things are and asking how do these things happen if we are being watched over and protected.

My ex-girlfriend's mom once said she didn't believe in God. She said "why would there be all this violence, hate and air pollution if God did exist?". Now I have a theory. First I would like to say that I do feel there is something out there. I don't know what. If anything I should restate myself by saying I hope there is something great out there. Air pollution, hate violence etc exist because man is uncontrollable. My thought is that the supreme being jump started us ( not in seven days). I feel that what we, the human race , has become is something shameful and embarrasing. I feel God may have left us to move on to other things. Maybe for a race that wont use the planet they were given and just flush it away.

Something I find interesting about people that are dedicated to the idea of God is that they are sometimes the most violent people you could ever meet. The idea of God is supposed to be one of peace, love, forgiveness. Not vengeance, violence, hate and beating the shit out of people who are different. Remember when Jesus "invaded" Jerusleum? He had his men setup outposts and forced people to convert to his ways or else pay the penalty. The would be stripped down and pictures would be taken of them. And who can forget about the time Buddha beat the shit out of fags, that was a horribe time too.

I guess what I'm getting at is God is a theory. There are so many different religions out there that the idea to die or kill for it seems peposterous. Please stop using God as an excuse to lead wars, hurt people who are different than you, and be ignorant. Remember, as aI preached before, that the idea of God is one of forgiving and love. That's how you should be too.